I imagine it like this (good idea coz also autist): Normal people have more or less steady levels of concentration, focus, etc. ADHD people have it a lot different:

• low activity mode
• medium activity mode
• super-high activity mode

but I also think, that in the end the total activity expense has to be equal of a normal people so it’s all about compromises: think less for 5 days, then brainstorm for 3-6 hours 1 day and achieve concentration and capability levels that normal people can only dream of.

the problem is knowing which mode is when, and if it’s possible to influence them? for example today I got my super high activity mode triggered by A LOT of sugar. Right now I’m doing tasks that required my mind to “JUMP” high, and for a long time far away. I’m doing it.

but also fuck had also something important to say - forgot.

I’m doing like 3-5 things “at once” - I mean in 1 query - pausing the doing the other thing, rinse and repeat.

alright, I backtraced my own thoughts ( going backwards thought by thought ), I remembered:

It actually does feel like 3 modes (again but different comparisson):

• normal car, sometimes
• super shit car what the fuck super slow, sometimes (but also, in this mode we can do things and act as we usually do - the muscle memory for example can automatically jump in, or other things such as doing things we used to - just repeating, but sadly a lot of the time that doesn’t work, and being in this mode while at a workplace, and ESPECIALLY if you’re new to the company or whatever… it’s a very bad timing)
• 600 hp muscle car, sometimes

compared to normal brains (neurotypical):

• normal car, sometimes
• a bit slower car, sometimes
• 200hp better car, sometimes

I — admit I learned — something. in my mind these are long-ass pauses now — and IIIIII like it

No, you are rude for spreading wrong information A lot of literate people write with ashes and no, I don’t care who wrote what, it’s a part of English, there is nothing to be said about it - deal with it.

a fucking ton :( and it’s very hard, and it hurts a lot like a lot people hurt me because of it very often

Did you hit your head somewhere? A lot of people use dashes - including myself. Learn what they’re even used for, illiterate bakka!

So me! Something worse than having adhd is having it together with autism why? Because the 2 contradict each other like a lot so you’re there left standing and taking all the damage from the 2 :(

oh nooo the privacy, my people :( the privacy please at least use Tor so they don’t own your thoughts! Be safe

Wow that is actually possible? :(

no

PANIC!!!PANIC!!!PANIC!!!PANIC!!!PANIC!!!PANIC!!! why? IDK bored? PANIC!!!

PANIC!!!PANIC!!!PANIC!!!PANIC!!!PANIC!!!PANIC!!!PANIC!!!PANIC!!! why? DOESN’T MATTER PANIC!!!

That’s so me a volcano eruption of emotions! while my face is literally pokerface

carrot? I love them

I love lemmy I love you guys I love this community! You give me purpose in life you let me know that the difficulties in life aren’t my fault, they are just my curses ;(

You can make yourself do the dishes? You’re a magician!! Once okay Twice in my life I’ve made a huge mountain-pile (literally as big as me) dish tower. it sat there for 1 month it got some sort of fat grease over everything (I think I drowned everything in water? cant recall

anyways I prefer fast food or non-cooking non-dirtying-the-dishes type of foods but honestly a dishwasher goes a long way!

literally my life

I have enormous desire for stimulation like it’s unreal I feel like someone is torturing me if something gets way too monotone, way too boring and stuff becomes very way too monotone and boring surprisingly increasingly faster… the older I get the faster I get bored it’s torture FUCKING TORTURE KILL ME KILL ME PLEASE AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

This is so me